avery rolled over 3 times!!!!!! she went from tummy to back. not the other way around yet but we will get there :)
im so proud of my 12 weeker!

well i survived my first day back to work, and avery did well at daycare. apparently she took a 2 hr 15 minute nap in the swing. good girl! everyone at the daycare seems nice. when i went to pick avery up she was playing on the playmat. i got a good smile when i picked her up off the floor :) lots of snuggles and kisses from mommy for the rest of the night hehe. i love her!

in less than 48 hours, i will be back to work. i am so incredibly depressed about this..i dont know how i am going to function. avery is my world. i have spent the past 11 weeks completely consumed by her. how can i be expected to succesfully do my job while worrying about her? i am so sad knowing that i will miss milestones. i want to see every "first". they are only young once. it is so unfair that i have to return to work so soon. other countries give a year maternity leave! people at my job who go out for psych issues have gotten 6 months!!!! it blows my mind and it is complete crap. i hope they fire me. i know thats a horrible thing to say, but really, i know i need money or we will not be able to pay any bills..but really, i just want to be home with my baby. i would trade anything in the world for that. i need more time with her. i am going to be a mess monday morning. i know she prob wont even realize shes not with me, and she will be fine. but I WANT TO BE THE ONE TAKING CARE OF HER. she is my child, i should be the one feeding her, cuddling her, playing with her. life is too busy and goes by so fast. i blink and shes already 11 weeks old! i hope i dont cry all day..that would be embaressing.
the one thing i can hope for is that i will be so busy playing catch up and whatnot that the week will fly by and then the next and then the next.
i know its not like i am dying or something. i will see her. but i will only get an hour in the morning before work and then about 3 hours after work before bed. thats so little time...
i love being a mother. its the best job in the world. i just wish i were lucky enough to be able to stay home.

i just want to share one of my new favorite pictures of avery that i took today.
she is 2 months and 1 week old. she can hold her head up while on her tummy, smile, sit up while supported. and the most important: she is the love of my life. i didnt know what love was until she was born. i love my husband and he loves me. but this is different. she is the most incredible little girl. she has such a personality already. i look forward to every second i get to spend with her. i love our family!

i think its safe to say, Avery is officially sleeping through the night! and not only that, but she is now sleeping in her crib for the second night in a row. last night, she slept for almost 12 hours!!! i am so proud of my little girl. she is getting so big. its kind of bittersweet. on one hand, its amazing seeing all these new developments. every day she gets bigger and bigger and can do more and is more alert. but on the other hand...its just going so fast. i feel like i blink and shes taller! i just love her smiles. it makes me want to cry i am so in love with her. she is just beyond perfection to me. i feel complete.

avery had her 2 month apt today as well as turning 2 months. she is 11.3 lbs and 22 1/4 inches.. she got her 4 vaccines today and poor thing screamed so loud :( it made mommy very sad.
avery is able to lift her head while on her tummy, hold a rattle when pressed to her hand, and for the past two nights she slept 9 hours straight!! heres to hoping that continues. after a week of that i plan on moving her to her own room. ill be sad but i know its almost time.